how do you go on when you've put your trust in someone else and they destroy it. when you've placed your dreams in their hands, not because you wanted to, but because they asked you to. when you made plans based on theirs while knowing in your soul that something wasn't right about it. when you've put your life on hold for the promises they've made, but now you see, never intended on keeping. how does that relationship continue. i can move past hurt feelings. but broken promises? i'm not so sure. when you've given so much of yourself to someone, to something else. after years of hard work you're left with nothing in return, and nothing to show for it. how can you move on from that? how do you take that next exit when you're not sure where that road leads. when you had a map so clear in your mind you were certain you could drive it blindfolded. but now that map is gone, stolen from someone who never had your best interest in mind. someone who was too concerned with them self to ever appreciate or respect what you've given up for them. in exchange for that beautiful map you're left completely empty handed. you've got no where to turn, but you're coming to that dead end fast. do you walk away without another plan? do you tough it out until you can figure it out? i'm not sure where i go from here.. but what i do know is i'm going. i feel like i've been waiting for something that isn't ever going to happen. i'm not waiting anymore. its time to move on. its time to start holding my own dreams in my own hands. its time to start loving those dreams into life and loving myself in the process. i might not know where i'm going just yet. but i can promise you this.. i'm going to go far.
"go so far away that you stop being afraid of never coming back."
disclaimer: this is not in regards to a personal relationship, but to my job.
yes, that is how much it meant to me.
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