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well. that pretty much says it all. i've given this little piece of the internet a lot of thought , but not a lot of action, lately. likewise, the exact same statement can be made for my life. so allow me to take a break. i'm removing myself for a while in order to really focus on what i want and need out of myself. not out of life. out of myself. how can i better myself in a way that betters the world? what can i do today, right now, that is going to make a difference. now, i'm not talking about curing cancer here. i'm not even talking about anything of real substance. what i'm talking about is smiling. yes, practicing smiling. because i've found myself doing a lot less of it lately, and i don't like that. i'm taking some time off from this space, from facebook {because i really do loath it}, and really from pretty much anyone and everyone that i dont need to be in contact with on a daily basis. i'm going to clean out my head {and my house, because lets be honest, i've been in a funk and my laundry pile has too}, i'm going to drink a lot of water, i'm going to take walks, and naps, listen to my happy music, and work out, and practice yoga, and read, and run, and just be me. i hope you understand. and i'll leave you with this:

"never mind searching for who you are, 

search instead for who you aspire to be." - robert brault.

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my actual life.

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except i might come back someday. 

maybe.

hopeless romantics.

"we're a band of thieves, us hopeless romantics. stealing the world of all its very best love."

- meg fee.

sometimes i want a puppy.

but mostly i just want J to want a puppy so that i do not have to actually take care of him, or bathe him, or train him, assuming it would be a him. {Lord knows i'm not great at any of those things}. but more importantly i want J to want a great dane. {and Lord knows that wont ever happen}. so now i'm stuck wishing and wanting and playing with puppies of others.

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red, white, and blue.

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i'm not in the states for the fourth. 

and lets just say i'm not too happy about it. 

i will, however, be attending a fireworks show at the Four Seasons tonight.

and i've been eating my weight in watermelon.

in a small way, it's making me feel better.

the vow.

oh dear lord. 

i can't wait for this film.

happy birthday, mommy.

as you know, i ordered you flowers. but i just now got the email that they wont be delivered today. and then i canceled them. and then i cried because i wont be there, and neither will the flowers. and i miss you a lot. *breathe*

i've decided that from now on {after this year} even if i can't make it home for Christmas, or won't be there for Thanksgiving, or for my birthday, or Mother's Day, or any other day of the whole damn year.. i'm going to be there for your birthday. because it happens to be two days before the 4th of July, and the combination of the two days make for the best and most happy weekend of the year. i promise that next year you'll get hand delivered flowers. from me. personally. have the most wonderful day. i loved hearing your voice! xoxo ♥

benj haisch photography.

i'm starting a new series. 

it'll feature photographers i admire and a few select photos.  

simple, and quite wonderful to look at. 

i hope you enjoy. 

found here.

until my heart stops.

pinterest.